For awhile now I’ve been struggling pretty hard core with lack of energy.
At first when everything shut down last year it was very relieving to slow way down and live at the pace our family really needed.
But now that life is picking up steam again, I’m having a really hard time keeping up.
And I think a lot of it has to do with me not having handled stress very well for many years.
After an elongated amount of time of barely being able to make it through the day my husband very empathetically insisted I go to the Dr.
So I went and in a way it was relieving to find out I have a couple of things working against me. I have two tests they’re keeping an eye on and will follow up on in a year and one test that revealed an issue I have started treatment for.
During my second visit at the dr office (actually seeing the Nurse Practioner, I do love Nurse Practioners) while I was getting some of the results, she stopped typing, looked me in my eyes and said in such a genuinely compassionate way, “Anyone would be exhausted with what you are doing everyday even without having these issues going on medically.”
She proceeded to just speak life and love into me and the need to take care of myself, giving me tips on how to realistically and gently begin fitting exercise into my week, for myself and for my husband.
And not for the health benefits only but for the stress relief that it will bring. “For your mind” she said, “exercise, it will help you.”
The whole experience of actually going to the Dr for help was very relieving to have someone who knows what is happening in my body reassure me it is not “me” as a person who is just not able to handle it all, but it has been my body letting me know it needed help in the form of medical intervention.
The experience of having the Dr so loving speak to me, get started on needed treatment, and feel like I have a doable exercise plan was what I really needed in that moment.
And exactly what I need to hold onto moving forward as I start where I am, rebuild my health, and work towards healing- physically, mentally, emotionally, all of it.